I come from a small village close to Der’a. I came here to Beirut because there were clashes; our village was occupied by the free army. At first we heard that problems had erupted in the village nearby, but soon they also started in our village. We sought refuge in the next village, but they attacked us there too. We had to hide in a bunker all day, from the morning until the evening. Even when it was Ramadan, we also had to sleep there.
After that we received information, that all villages will be destroyed and burned.I didn’t want to stay there, because all my family left, each one of us is in another country. Our home was at the entrance of the village, facing another village who fired rockets at us. If we turned on a light, they would send in a rocket, so I can’t stay in the village and that’s why I came here to Beirut in 2011.
In Beirut, I first lived with my husband’s brother, then I moved eight times. First I lived in a room in Laylake, this quarter is only for people affiliated with a political movement, and they always harassed us, asking if we were with the free army or with official army, and who our father worked for. They really provoked us and they were going to assume the wrong position about us.
I moved often and the last room I rented was in Bir Hassan. I was pregnant there but my daughter was stillborn, so I didn’t like this room, I couldn’t stay there, and I moved again. After that, we rented another room with a kitchen for $300 dollars, my husband earns $450, so we only had $150/month left, and that’s not enough.
In the beginning when we arrived here, we thought we would stay 2 or 3 months and that we could go back. We thought it would be simple, but it’s been three years now and we are still here. At first, we said it will end on the next month, then we said in one year, but now I don’t believe it any more. I know it’ll go on for a long time, but we would like to go back as soon as possible. I would like to go back home, today before tomorrow. I want to go back home.